I love you! I never stopped. I was so hurt. :( I love seeing your messages now. I always smile when I see a poke from you. You have always listened to me when I tell you about work, school, my family. You never made me feel like I didn't matter.
When I was sick, you were sweet and loving. You couldn't stay close because if you get sick it is wat worse. But you were never insulting. You cooked real food for me. I appreciate that. You never complained about my cooking. Even if it was a flop.
Oh I don't want to hope we will get back together. I think it will hurt more this time of that wasn't what you wanted.
And neither of us can pursue another relationship anyway.
I know I need to end things. This guy is toxic. He says I'm stupid. I'm ridiculous. He doesn't tell me I am beautiful. He sure doesn't treat me with respect. He doesn't trust me. I am not allowed to be friends with any men.
He spends all my money. He justifies himself.he has no intention of making this right.
He never lets people know I'm even
Here. I'm just a thorn in his side. I'm done. I just need to get away.
I'm tired of crying every day. My heart is so tangled up in hurt and pain and negativity. I have to go to work to feel like I matter.
But not with you. You make me feel pretty and accepted. Sigh. Why did your mom have to meddle?
Sigh. So I'm stuck.
Oh, Jesus. Help me? Help me see clearly where I need to go. Please open the path I need to traverse. Even if I am not to be with my Sweet, I wish to be with You more.
I lift my Sweet up to you. You know his physical ailments. You know his heart ailments. Lord, help him to know You love him even more than I do.
Thank, Jesus. For hearing me. Thank You, for accepting just like this. I want to bring honor to You. Grant me peace, understanding, direction.
I love You.
