One of those moments

I'm still awake. I'm assaulted by feelings of doubt, loathing of myself, severe fear.

The man I haven't stopped loving is moving away tomorrow. I'm afraid to tell him I still love him. I'm feeling sick. I don't want him to go. I know he needs too.

I feel ugly, frumpy, fat, not worthy of anyones love. I'm defeated. How do I move up?

I want to be a mommy

I am afraid this will never happen. I am not respected at church. I don't deserve respect at home. I work too hard at work. I'm not appreciated, so what is my value.

Turmoil

I am so tired. I'm hurt and disappointed. I wonder if singing is wrong with me? I'm over weight so I hate how I look. I am not appreciated at church by the people who allow me to be there in the capacity I am at. I can't get a promotion at work. My family keeps hounding me to spend time with them. Is it wrong of me to want to be alone right now?

I still love a man who was in my life. I dream about him almost every night. I have been dreaming of him since we had started dating many years ago.

I am breaking things off with the man I am supposed to call husband. We aren't legally married. I feel like a fraud! I hurt him like I've been hurt many times before.

Lord Jesus, what is wrong with me? What am I supposed to do?

Right now, I am waiting. I crave alone time.

I am so tired. And fat. And ugly.

Stylefind is a fun site to window shop

I have been checking out stylefind.com for a few months now. I love it! I have been having fun looking at the new ideas and concepts suggested for my style. I agree with some and disagree with others. It is fun!

I am saving the ones I like so when I have the fundage, I can afford the pieces I like. You know, I hate knock off ideas. I am too much of a purist, but on my budget, I can't afford to be that picky. HAHA!

Well, until next time... Adios!